It really is hard to believe, but it’s already been 4 months since Sophia graced us with her arrival. To say it has been a whirlwind 4 months would be an understatement. From the sleepless nights the first couple months home, to now seeing her personality start to come out, it has been amazing.
Going into Sarah’s pregnancy I was so scared, nervous and excited all at the same time. I had no idea what I was getting myself into, but what I did know was that my life would be changing forever. One of the funniest things that happened during Sarah’s pregnancy, aside from her pregnancy brain and pregnancy clumsiness… was the debate about what we’d be having, a boy or a girl. Naturally, as a man, I said we’d have a boy. Because, ya know, I gotta have someone to carry on my name and um, legacy?? The week we announced the news to our families we were away on vacation with Sarah’s family. While going back and forth on boy or girl I made a declarative statement that I can never take back and will forever live on in the form of a video on Sarah’s old phone. “We’re having a boy,” I stated. “I don’t make girls…” Yeah, I was THAT guy! When we found out we’d be having a girl at the 20-week ultrasound, that statement was thrown back in my face immediately. I’m sure that statement will one day make it to Sophia with her asking “What, Daddy, you didn’t want me to be a girl??” Followed by sad eyes… I’ll then have to tell her it was all a joke and that of course I wanted her and wanted her to be a girl. Pretty easy, right? On second thought, maybe I should find Sarah’s old phone and burn it AND the video proof…
The funny thing is, as soon as Sophia was born I was instantly in love with her and couldn’t imagine if we had had a boy. It’s not really something I can explain, it was just this raw feeling inside of me that I was meant to have a daughter and couldn’t imagine things any other way.Now I may change my tune once she hits her pre-teen years and is possibly a raging nightmare, but that won’t happen with MY daughter. Nope. Not gonna happen… HEY! A dad can dream can’t he???
Each and every day I fall in love with her all over again. Yeah, being home all day with her has its challenges, especially now that she is starting to roll around the floor whenever I put her down to play on her play mat. Getting work done is a challenge, but I expected that. There are three times every day I basically melt. First, when I go in to get her out of her crib in the morning after she wakes up and she just lights up with this beaming smile when she sees me. I can’t even begin to describe the feelings I have every morning when that happens. Second, generally at least once a day after feeding her, she falls asleep on my shoulder with her one arm wrapped around my neck like a hug. That is easily one of my favorite parts of the day. And third, whenever I do something stupid and silly like make a ridiculous face, make up the most absurd song ever to sing to her or tickle her and she just bursts out laughing. That is such an amazing thing to feel as a new parent. I mean, at least somebody thinks I’m funny. Aside from myself, because if you ask me, I’m hilarious…
That’s it for now kids. I have a new post running through my head now that I’ll get up in the coming days. I’m sure you’ll enjoy reading all about ‘the spit-up conundrum’ and Sophia’s meeting with Aunt Em, aka Aunt Poopie Finger. I’ll leave you with a couple new pics of the little lady.
4 thoughts on “Dad Reflections”
Such a good Papa! You got the “parenting bug” and John and I are proud of you and Sarah!
You are an awesome father Nick, and Sophia will always be reminded of that!
this is so cute. Sophia’s got a great laugh just like her mama!
It is great to read these updates man…so glad to have a brother to go through this with…and your right…truly an amazing feeling being a parent